I started my journey of sobriety on August 2015. As of today, I have been clean exactly 173 days, 8 hours and 32 minutes to be exact. In the beginning the decision becoming sober was very easy – because I came to the point that I surrendered. I was tired of life, emotionally, physically and financially. I have been an addict for close to 20 years and every day was a struggle, not knowing if I was going to be alive the next morning. I used to look at myself in the mirror and wanting to die, but God had other plans for me. I committed suicide 4 times and failed all 4 times, not because I did not try try hard enough, but simply it wasn’t my time to go just yet. After 20 years of feeling ashamed and losing the most important things in my life, I surrendered myself to a life of sobriety. From the very first day in sobriety, I’ve had a lot of up’s and downs. My life is changing daily but only for the best. I am regaining the trust I lost from my family & friends – and I feel better as a human. Nobody said it was easy but I look at yesterday and i hate the person I was. I definitely don’t look at tomorrow because tomorrow has it’s own worries, I focus on today and today only.